Self problems

Birthday real soon .

Exams real soon .

if i ask mummy daddy can i go out for my birthday celebration , they'll say NO and say exams are close .

if i ask my friends out for my birthday celebration , they'll say NO and say exams are close .

i always wish to have a birthday party at home but not once .

i always wish to have lot's of outings with friends but not once .

i always wish to have a love one to celebrate with me but not once .

Nowadays mummy daddy will lock me at home and call me to do this and that .

am i a dog for them ?

i know i'm not their son .

i know i'm not smart .

i know i'm not pretty .

i know i'm not good .

but 

i know i'm their daughter .

I use to have of friends .

but

i don't think they care me .

i don't think they need me .

i don't think they notice me .

friendship and family always come first to me .

but 

i'm not in the list in their heart .

I wish to have a perfect guy .

but i always missed it .

i'm not an expert in love .

but i'm always being serious in the relationship .

he don't need me .

he don't love me .

* tears drop * I WANNA SCREAM !

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