Where you go , i miss you so

My Chinese New Year was a disaster 
never really celebrate my 2011 CNY because something bad happen on 2 days before cny
second time , it's the second time !
my grandma , mother's side passed away
why do i say second time ?
on 2009 *if i'm not wrong*
my grandma , father's side passed away around cny corner
this time is the same too
it makes me feel bad
i cried a lot for that day because we was seeing grandma going
i really miss her
really really miss her
why can't god stop fooling with my life ??
yea , i get lotsa replies saying that " This is life "
i believe in life and i play hard with my life for not makin my life bad
but why ?!

Only could take a picture when she's sleeping 

Grandma ,
how are you ?
how was the new place ?
did you meet grandpa ?
do you know , i miss you ....
mum misses you ...
i miss your hand
i miss your smile
i miss your smells
i miss your chocolates
i miss those time you taught me mahjoong
i miss those time you buy what i want
i miss those time you rescue me from getting scold by mum
i miss ever single minute with you 
why do you leave us so sudden ?
i wish it was a nightmare and you will pinch me and call me to wake up
Grandma , i miss you so so much ...
Grandma , i love you so so much ...
Grandma , you'll always in our heart ...
i promise ...

We love you Grandma